Mariken Heijwegen

Mariken Heijwegen

“”All my work comes from unknown places in my head””

I paint heads. Self-portrets.

My hands help me transform my emotions on the canvas. My language.

Sometimes an awful lot happens in a head and no one knows, except you, what's going on there. It can be dark, scary, filled with fears and doubts, obstacles and everything that, I think, is human. Last months I was in a dark place and it was very scary. It was dark in my head and it feels like an explosion of all my fears.

Every day I painted a portrait during that time. My paintings reflect feelings like panic attacks, fear, anxiety, insecurities and all mixed emotions. Slowly the paintings are less capricious and less vage. There is slowly coming a person in front off the painting. That person is me.

Creativity saved me and helped to deal with my angre and agression about the whole situation and can I slowly except who I am.

I want to show the world that you don't have to be ashamed about a mental illness and I hope to break taboos. It makes me vulnerable and i think that's a good thing. I want to make the invisible visible.

Welcome to my mental journey and let’s start a dialogue.

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